Today, I learned that it would be ideal for me to define my creative aesthetic, declare how I want to come off as a writer, and refine what matters to me and why.

These answers are not going to come to me in one sitting. I have to remind myself that this will be a several-part process involving a lot of deep thought to answering the right questions.

I have a tendency to be bogged down by my need for immediate perfection. If It doesn’t look good or feel right in the beginning, I will run from it, leaving it to the cobwebs in my mind.

When I get struck by an overwhelming thought, I will switch to my browser and read the news or get up to grab a snack. I will do anything to get away, and I do this so quickly, subconsciously. Even now, as I’m writing this, I’m itching to switch windows to do something else. It’s annoying.

It has helped me to work in Pomodoro sessions, making me aware that I’m supposed to focus on ONE THING for this short amount of time. Another tactic I use is to play wordless music in the background as a soundtrack for my focused work.

I just need to be reminded to keep at it, finish what I set out to do. Currently, I seem to have so much on my plate. Figuring out my aesthetic, not just in writing, will help narrow my interests and what I want to continue to build.